Texas was fun! I made it through the airport by myself. YAY! I am home for a few and today is my birthday:) I am headed out on Monday to SC for camp!

TEXAS!

I am now in Texas (got here yesterday, after having arrived home the previous day from NC). Just got back from swimming, which I plan to do every day that I am here. We did lots and lots and LOTS of laundry, and a little grocery shopping. All in all a good day. I do not have a ton planned for this trip, mostly just chillin and doing whatever my cousins do. Should be a good time but I will miss my family a lot!

Trip #1

I am sitting here in NC about to go to bed. So far the conference has been really good and opened my mind to some new thinking. I believe I will learn a lot! Pretty good drive up. My aunt has developed pink eye:/ My eyes are just dry and itchy:/ but other than that it's going to be good. I am going to try not to let anything bother me:) With the Lord's help. Just a quick update!

Summer time!

I decided to quit my wonderful full time job:'( To do a few things over the summer before getting a part time job and going to school. Notice I said to do a few things. Actually I think that when I first concidered quitting, it was just a couple of things. Lets just say my summer has REALLY filled up. I believe I will be gone more than I will be here. Let's see...





This weekend my fabulous TX family, Tia Pantelones, Uncle Pi and cousins Amy, Tyler and Adam are coming into town. Our two families will be headed to North Carolina for a family camp (I have no details on that) for a few days. We will come back here and then I will be headed to TX with them for about a week and then fly home (by myself)

I will then be home for about 4 days one of which happenes to be my birthday *wink* *wink* and then I will turn around and head to South Carolina for E.I.G. Totally HiS Youth Conference. I went last year and it was an incredible experience!

After that I will be home for about a week and then I will head to Florida for a full week:) with my aunt Becky and uncle Chris and my wonderfull best friend/cousin/sister Sarah:)

As soon as I get back some of the people from my church, myself included, are going to Clarksville TN to host a back yard bible club at our church plant. SOOO exciting!

And lastly...

I will be home for a couple of weeks before heading to Missouri to Camp Barnabas. It will be such an incredible camp. It is a camp that provides an opportunity for disabled and mentally handicapped children (and adults I think) to go to a summer camp just like anyone else. It is Christ centered and fun filled. It will be new to me but I beleive that God will really use it!

I hope and plan to provide pictures and stories after everyone of these trips so keep me accountable!

As I sit here in Starbucks on my new MacBook I feel...so full. So full of something...words. Words that I can not get out. My heart is so full of love, yet hurt at the same time. I watch youtube video after video of orphans in Africa. Why are there so many? Why are there so many orphans God?! Why?! Tears prick my eyes over and over. My heart aches so very deeply and I feel that the love and passion I have for those children is about to burst from me. However, I feel stuck. Here I am sitting in Starbucks, sipping my green tea lemonade. I do not feel the Lord moving me over seas. Not right now anyway. Not without a husband to be my head. However, these feelings are overwhelming and I know they must be coming for someone more loving and compassionate than I. Love is a powerful thing and I can feel that power. It's the power that causes me to itch and ache inside. I must act, not speak. True love can only come from a powerful God and if this is truly coming from Him then I will show me in His good time what He would have me do with it. I must learn to trust Him.

I sit here staring at a blank page...I want to write something so bad but know not what to say:/

He is jealous for me,Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.When all of a sudden,I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,And I realise just how beautiful You are,And how great Your affections are for me.

Pre-Chorus:And oh, how He loves us so,Oh how He loves us,How He loves us all

Chorus 1:Yeah, He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves.Yeah, He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves.

Verse 2:We are His portion and He is our prize,Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, When I think about, the way…

Chorus 2:He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Oh how He loves.Yeah, He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves us,Whoa! how He loves.